So today I still feel sick and miserable and depressed. But hey thats life and I'll just turn the other check every so often. But I still say fuck people who say they are open minded and forgiving and then contridict themselves later. And if for some odd reason the person who I'm talking about can read this,, then you know I'm talking about you! If you only knew how to forgive and yet I can never forgive you now for what you did to me behind my back.
Fuck Liers!

Peace bitches I'm oUT~

I lived a life that was once spoken of in true value
But now is lost in a world of natural decent.

We came so far that we can't undo, but haven't become correct
I'm trying hard, but still unnoticed, that I can't connect

Why shameless trials and blameless thoughts, you've spoke of while smoking cigarettes,
I'm doing what I can and doing what I should, while you go and get wrecked

I'll sit right here and try not to care,
as if we we're both innocent

I loved you so, and you know this true
you felt the same way once,

You can't complain until there's death,
which you didn't help protect

I told you so, and I did like you said
I know I have my love to blame,
since you never could forget

So I'll sit right here, and never forget
how we're both so innocent

You left a scar on my life, my soul that you kept,
This time I'll heal, and will prevail as if you never meant,

I'm doing what is best, and learning how to forgive,
this one time I shall receive

A timeless memory, of how things were
and you were the best half of me

So I sit right here, forgiving the love I had for you,
that day when you thought we were innocent
I'll sit right here, remembering how
your not so innocent

I'm single and tired of being it but yet I won't date anyone other then the last person I wouldn't.. does that make any sense? She broke my heart and can't even care about the one of the pieces thats left. Fuck that! I tried, she didn't. And thats what counts in my mind. Where's the courage to make the change. Hell isn't it the girlfriend's job the make the mold out a the guy she's seeing into the guy she wants? Atleast thats what I was told growing up. ohwell. Men are wrong so why should anything I'm saying now be right? FUCK this!

Its just this moment

this moment in life

in life where we decide what we do

in all and in life



We try and we struggle

we stive and we last

we finish and we end

but we never forget



I've done my best and I've done my time,

in this life and the other

we tried our best,

we tried the best.



I'm done with this shame,

I'm tired of this guilt,

we couldn't make things work

only becuase you wouldn't feel



I'm free now, and so are you

to the endless time

of us being true

take me for me but not forgotten



I will be whole, just not unrested

til the days die out

and the life is forgotten,

I shall rest here



Remembering how it all started.

Current Mood: lonely

It was a little crazy or hetic today, trying to get this show ready for feb.24th. I still have to talk to some people about things and get stuff planned out. but alot of running back and forth and also being dumb and not filling out everything on a sheet that needs to be in by wednsday mourning.. Crazy crazy. ohwell hopefully this show will go out with a bang and sell out. Can't wait. only one month til showtime.

This is something that I can't figure out. Today I woke up feeling great, I had alot of fun last night even though it did last until 5am, but hey, thats usually when the fun begins; right? So I go see some friends today to watch a movie, so far so good we had some laughs and screwed around. It was great, but then something happened. I became a total asshole, I started yelling at people and demanding stuff. I have no clue what came over me. I felt violent, more then well anyone who is angry would feel. But it accured to me, why am I so upset all of a sudden? What did any of these people do to make me so angry? I can't answer this but what I can say is that people have issues. I have them, you have them, we all pretty much have them and we all know we have bad days. Its a crazy world out there, I wish I could begin to understand it.